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Happy full moon! I got to spend a lot of time outside under it last night, while taking care of one sick puppy…

I have a dog now, by the way. I haven’t told you on here yet. Bailey came to me in February, from a rescue, looking like this:

I reluctantly agreed to foster her for 1-2 weeks, thinking I wouldn’t keep her long term since I was looking for a smaller, older, more male dog who could eventually be my furever friend. Four months later, here I am with the same, now-44 lb. female puppy. This month she looks like this:

She’s usually thriving, but this week has been sick. It’s been a rough couple of days, rounding off last week when I was sick (the covid finally got me!) But we are both home and healing under the remnants of the full moon in Capricorn.

It’s said this moon is a difficult one—one that may bring us back to memories of early 2020, when all the pandemic madness was just beginning. I can feel the reflections, with more talk of rising case numbers and infections, but hopefully things won’t get as intense as back then.

The astrology/moon blogs that I read (like Jen Racioppi’s Cosmic Health) ask us to reflect on the progress we’ve made since that time.

“Where were you then? Where are you now? What have you learned? What do you still need to shed?”

I might be an entirely different person! Early 2020 found me returning from romping down under in Australia, still bouncing around and unclear on any sort of direction. I was enjoying life, but I remember hoping for a more stable work situation and a sense of home. I landed very much home—in Poughkeepsie, NY at my dad’s house and then semi-sort-of “home” on Long Beach Island, NJ where I remain today.

I was on a break from teaching yoga while in Sydney. Luckily, backed by the learnings I picked up on that trip, I’m back to it and leading a teacher training with one of my yoga homes this summer.

Probably, for all of us, the past 2.5 years have forced us to grow up, maybe too much. Life is not as careless and free. Yet it feels more grounding and steady, and for me I’m glad it’s still happening here, near the beach:

We’re all a bit more serious and, I think, a bit more scared. But our relationships are stronger and deeper than before—they push our edges when we need and soften us when we need to be held. There’s a sense of bearing down, knowing that if we’ve made it this far, we can handle even more.

For me, having a puppy and steadier job (very contrary to my wandering ways) is pressing me to stay, be responsible to others, and give outside of myself. Some days it’s harder and heavier than it has been, but it makes me appreciate the smaller joys.

I’m learning, slowly and steadily. I spend too much time on the computer and the phone. I probably need to shed the desire to do everything and compartmentalize my relationships—work feels separate from life and vice versa. I’d love to be the fullest “me” in every work or life situation. I’m getting there.

I don’t have as many international adventures these days, but a few are in the works. I’ll keep sharing and I’m glad you’re still reading.

What’s this full moon bringing up for you?